Everything is different....everything is the same.
Tonight I feel maginalized, alone, angry.
It is Saturday...I have been in my apartment all day. The weather was wonderful, why do I do this. I really had no where to go, and there was no one who seemed to want to see me...everyone had other plans, HOGm & FS.
I did chat with DOCm on skype...that was good. He is the only person in my life that will ask me directly how I'm doing in my spiritual life. He is 20 years younger than me, and in a very different place than I am, but I love him, and I think he loves me in that special friendship way.
It is something that runs deep. A deep sympathy and mutual care than runs beneath all the trivialities of life.
But I still feel very alone tonight. My day was wasted. I didn't even pray or read the Bible, and it is Sabbath. When will God change my heart and give me a heart to love Him?
