Focus

I was in the office this afternoon from about 2 to 11 pm.  I made a list of about 6 things to do.  How many of them did I complete?  ZERO, not one of them did I really complete!  Why is this?

It is because I'm so distracted.  I have been this way all my life it seems.  I remember having a very hard time in school getting my homework done.  Same problem.  Is there any hope that I will be able to change now?

It is CRAZY to work all Sunday afternoon, till 11 pm and not having anything to show for it!  The point is, I didn't really work.  I started out well, setting a timer and trying to focus.  But that lasts for about 30 mins. and then I get off the system or get curious and end up surfing the net or sometime.

In the process I did find this website about how to get focused.  I spend some time looking at it and realize I need to read it.  I also made some comments...we'll see if they do any good.

Also, another one of my distractions is frustration and anger.  I don't like my teaching materials, and there are big problems with the online lab that students are using.  When these emotions come up I just shut down and need my addiction to release the stress.

So yes, I probably spent the last several hours surfing Model Mayhem and that, of course, led to watching porn.

WHAT I LEARNED: Lack of focus is one of my MAJOR problems.  If anyone can pray with me about this, I really need it.